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[7th Sep, 2005//1:11] ( ha funny stuff ) now you can do one yourself: dsfhdskjfh msg

[22nd Aug, 2005//8:07] you know, its one thing to be a jerk to me. but another to use my help and not credit me i gave you that freakin scene aesthetic site. GAVE IT to you. people have seriously lost decency. msg

isnt it lovely [17th Aug, 2005//19:08] i heard a quote on NPR today. (yes i LOVE NPR). it went like this:: writing: putting a word in front of another creates order. so it inspired me to write. i live on my computer. so why not write on it? i guess i wanted to not be so lame and write in my online journals anymore, but i check them all the time! and what makes this so lame? its much better than myspace. and its a place that i can put my thoughts out there in the universe and i can be expressed through this little web address. i have been thinking a lot. i love my friend and i hope he can learn to love me too again. i think i will be happy with my job because school starts and she told me i dont need to be there every day nor do i need to have a set schedule. i can come and go as i please. of course i need at least 30 hours a week, but i want to get another job as well as to make sure that i dont get stuck in this lonely rut of mine again. life should be simple. easy and slow. not so slow that youre unhappy. not too fast that you forget about the people closest to you. i did that. i went too fast. trying to cover up any hurt and any frustration i had. then my life slowed down and it felt like it stopped. seriously just stopped. then everything snowballed. mostly eric. and its taken months for everything to catch up, but it did and my heart hurts, but it was my own doing and never again will i do that. and i miss my closest friends. my friend had a bridal shower last night. i love the stuff she got, it wasnt all skanky and hoe baggish. it was tasteful and stuff she can wear other than when she wants to have sex all night. i got her the cutest thing too. and it was very inexpensive for being from victoria's secret heh. she is getting married tomorrow afternoon. half of those girls last night were married. haha it was sooo weird. all talking about their 'husbands' and everything. kinda made me jealous but also kinda freaked me out! marriage = scary/anxious thing! i am moving back into my grandmas house. i wish i could come home. but carl is coming home and in this little house, it wouldnt work. but i dont have to pay for anything but my stuff at my grandmas. so everything i earn and after i pay my bills i can save up to move back to washington and pay off my credit card. which by the way, i am moving back. i do not know when. probably after i get my associates. but i am still moving. i have to. i will be 22 and i figure if i am not married yet, what the heck. i love that place with my heart and soul. moving there the first time was a bit much. and it was good i went. but good i came home. i should have been saving for going back, but its okay. i can start now. im getting a blessing tonight. well, in a little while. then i am going to the temple with kimberly to watch the testament. i think that will give my heart peace and let me get over crying and have hope for now and for the future. INGRID, HAPPY BIRTHDAY msg 1

[22nd Jul, 2005//0:46] so harry potter -- the BEST books EVER i surely cannot wait another years for the last book..i swear i will go crazy. msg

[5th Jul, 2005//11:53] haha so theres nothing better than being at work and going swimming. i love my job. msg

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